Also, Holy Anniversary. It’s been about a year since I started this lil’ ol’ bloggity blog. October 16th to be exact. I was couch surfing, (I’m actually typing this from my friend’s house where I futon surfed, where I now clean and house sit on occasion,) crying at the hospital, sitting in a principals office, and living out of a suitcase eating food bank food. Now I am running my own business, surviving solely off of what I create on this planet that spins around the sun; my daughter moved to New York, I’m flying out there tomorrow, and in November will wrap up the fourth acting gig I’m in and start the 5th. (An adult sketch comedy show about the stupid holidays.)
And tomorrow is day 90 in my 90 day challenge to change my brain. It worked. No matter what shit storm I was in, I stayed positive, kept looking ahead, kept being grateful for what was right before and kept swimming. I moved out of the ‘Museum of Sadness’ (repressing/depressing man house) into one with my friend. (literally) As she is now moving out and leaving her husband and I AIN’T STAYIN THERE. Either I move with her, or I find another gig. AND despite all this drama, I seemed to have stayed in the eye of the hurricane. Other people’s shit storm is not MY shit storm. Wonderful. I have empathy towards their disaster, but I don’t carry it around. I will survive, I will find another amazing gig and I will be a good friend and I will move through this.
I went to another audition last Saturday for a comedy Christmas show that will start when the current show I am in ends. I GOT IT. I did my renditions of some characters I used to do with the kids. Bob Dylan’s Children’s Show, Cool Dad, and the News Anchor reading children’s stories. All this crazy playing I’ve done all my life is coming to fruition!! It’s a blast, I give less and less a care about things that used to upset me and only focus on GOOD/HAPPY/FRIENDS/LOVE – even in business. What I’m putting out there in integrity can only grow. I added Boyfriend as a handyman – strictly handyman -no contract work shit. We seem to be booming in a market of SERVICE that has been forgotten in this age of technology. No one has time to change a light bulb so they are paying us to do it. He cleans with me and we ain’t got no other jobs. I do hair on occasion and he builds furniture and makes art. Thas it. When I texted my son to tell him I just did the Bob Dylan character, he texted back to me “That’s my favorite character of yours!” Awe. Good old Bob Dylan…always there for me.
I’m on a roll. I use the theory that when you are in love, everyone is in love with you. When you love everything, life is good. For example, when you have a boyfriend, or are dating someone, EVERYONE wants to date you. So I conclude, when your energy is flyin high, when you are currently in a play, you should audition for other plays. I’m just having fun and I have nothing to lose. I walk around like I am in love with everything and it works. I’ve now worked my business and my way of income into something that lets me live in my creative life as well, and things couldn’t be better!!
I went to opening night of The Night of the Living Dead where I am in the film sequence that they intersperse into the live theater play. It’s effing awesome and hilarious. Currently I am rehearsing the biggest role I’ve ever been in. Lady Helena of ‘The Gut Girls’. Amazing. Super challenging. I’m being pushed with memorizing, acting, and generally committing to one of the biggest roles ever.
So tomorrow I leave for New York!! So much is happening. I should come to this blog everyday – but that feels so self absorbed to do that. Awe so what. I have so much to say.
I’m going to try to spend less than $20 a day in New York. My new challenge for the next 90 days…SAVE MONEY TO COME TO NEW YORK EVERY FEW MONTHS. I just want to hang, visit kid, drink coffee and be in the life and spin of that city.
A big thank you to Maggie, Le Clown, El Guapola, Faithhopechocolate, Bodhisattvaintraining, A Gripping Life as you guys have gotten me through some really tough times via typed words on this here laptop.
Pics of Guap and I meeting in real life shall be posted momentarily!!