Me as ‘The Old Bag’ (not a stretch)
I have really stayed focused on changing my brain. During all of this, THAT was my goal. To not fall back into habits that do not suit me, help me, forward me, make me smile. It’s that simple. DO NOT DO THINGS OR THINK THINGS THAT MAKE YOU MAD OR SAD FOR NO REASON. If you can think of sad things, just in your head, that aren’t even happening, and CRY…then you can do that with good things in the world too. You can manifest just as much good shit as you are willing to manifest shit that don’t work for you. I think about all the time and energy I put in to the Misery Club and what appeared for me while doing THAT. And by turning the corner of I AM NOT GOING TO DO THAT ANYMORE; MY LIFE CONTINUES TO TRANSFORM.
I got this part time salon job to ‘help’ out financially. It became a 40 hour a week job, took over everything, and effed up my cleaning biz. I still did my cleaning, working 60 to 70 hours a week some weeks. I have not had a day off in over a month. A lot of things took place and appeared in my life while doing so however. My friend, who is a master gardener, offered me a job after she walked in to the salon and met the crazy manager who yelled at both of us with a lobby full of people. She came in to give me flowers and I hugged her. I was afraid to quit as I’ve done that SO MUCH in the past. She said – ‘How long are you working here today? How much do you make here? Here’s $60. Quit and come work for me.’ So I walked out. My boss called me and begged me to come back. He fired cuckoo pants. I offered to work more hours to help him out. I have done this. It does not work for me.
My play that I am in is a HUGE ASS ROLE!!! I need to give it much focus and attention.
Two cleaning clients quit because of juggling them around so much.
I decided, that although it was good in theory to ‘get a job’, I can create all I need with my cleaning business, at home hair business, my friends’ job offer and still enjoy my theater work. I got scared that the cleaning wouldn’t avail, so I went and got another job, and almost lost everything I’d built up with the cleaning. BUT…if I hadn’t of made this move, my wonderful friend Sandie wouldn’t have stepped into my life that day, come in for a haircut, and offered me a job. Besides…I saved all my tip cash for my New York trip spending money.
I gave my two week notice at the salon and that I HAVE NEVER DONE IN MY ENTIRE CAREER OF JOB WORKING. soooooooooooooooooooo…that ends Friday. I’ve revamped the cleaning business, all my $15 an hour clients quit and I have my $20-$25 an hour people now, so the one’s who left only left space for all my new peeps. I CAN DO THIS. I DON’T NEED NO STINKING PAYCHECK I CAN RELY ON MY OWN DAMN SELF FOR SUPPORT. IT WILL COME. IT WILL BE THERE. THERE IS ENOUGH.
I moved out of the roommate situation with the two and a half (retards) men and moved in with my friend Kelly and her family. It is so wonderful. I pay $100 less. Life is good. I am in a new play, I filmed a zombie movie for an upcoming production of Night of The Living Dead on stage…wherein our film will be played.
My Boyfriend and I are still going day by day. I certainly missed my best friend so much and am so glad we have come back together with our experiences. We have collaborated on many conversations about what took place, Why We Broke Up, What Happened etc. and all is well on the heart to hearts. Wonderful. I’m in. Full throttle.
Splatter zone at ‘Evil Dead the Musical’.
I wouldn’t have it any other way!