I went to the grocery store and bought a bunch of healthy shit. I am not going out. I am working and coming home, riding my bike, walking, doing yoga. Booking new clients. I think I need a part time job though. With my aspirations, I need to SAVE some money – not just barely live off of what I have. So, nose the the grindstone.
I realized a lot of this crying I am doing is just a pure release. I am not necessarily SAD or DOWN…I’ve been NOT crying for so long, over so much pain, that releasing it all is pretty awesome.
I’m just riding the wave right now. Things are not up or down, they are just things.
My daughter got a job on Madison Avenue. !!! (at a restaurant) THIS NEW YORK THING IS HAPPENING!!!! They are still apartment hunting, they felt the Realtor in this last search was scammy, so they don’t want to live there. These kids are smart petuties. Some people have been pretty fucking AWFUL to her however with her decision…but I told her it scares people when you are bold. Their own insecurities come out. Stick with the positive supportive peeps. God knows I know this all too well.
FILL THE HOLE- is what I was taught growing up. I get that now. I learned it. I am unlearning it.
I like my empty hole thank you very much. (Ummm, in more ways than one.)
It’s a window.
Me and my hole do lots of cool stuff.
I have an improv show tonight. Dress rehearsals start next week for my play. Money is being saved in my underwear drawer for my New York trip.
I had two people contact me for hair cuts because they don’t want anyone else to touch their hair. So I am going to their homes and cutting the whole family’s hair – two families.
Thank you world!!!!!
Here’s to laughing and enjoying big, fat, empty holes.