The reality of my life is, I am fucking broke, super smart, have horrible self esteem, can not feel UN BROKEN, can’t get out of this hole.
I make about 1200 a month. Have horrible credit and shitty background.
I am crying full on losing my shit today.
I am going to my two cleaning/hair cut clients today and marketing myself bla bla bla…but I feel so deep in this hole of shit life that I don’t see a way out. I can’t today.
I just can’t.
I have rehearsal tonight…I will go through the motions of my day…I will go to the bank and pay rent.
I don’t know how to NOT FEEL THIS WAY. That’s what sucks. I have spent the last 20 years where I am RIGHT NOW.
I’m just going to step over this mess the best I can and keep going forward.
It sucks to not be able to help myself let alone my daughter. I hate my life.