When are you going to get your shit together???? Mantra from my parents, my ex, many many after them…always asking me this….me always telling them NEVER!!! NEVER YOU BASTARDS!!! WHY DO YOU CARE!!!??? FUCK OFF!!!!
Well today, I will be getting all of my shit together in a UHaul.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iu2q3UFBgmc – this is what I will be trying to accomplish at zero dark thirty today. I haven’t seen the ex but once at a coffee shop after we broke up. Daughter was still in hospital. I was still couch surfing. He talks to me like a robot now, so it should be quick and painless. Also, (the control freak in me HATES this), but he packed all my stuff already. I guess he decided what was mine. I guess when you leave with a suitcase and leave everything behind, you’ve forfeited a little of your rights in this area. He COULD have said, no I won’t keep your stuff. I’m sure its fine, he is not vindictive. I just don’t like it, but secretly its cool that shit is DONE. right?? And of COURSE he has packed the whole house as he is ‘leaving the country’…as he can’t find a job in ALL OF AMERICA. sheesh. anyway BACK TO ME:
oh, and watch that video…cuz that’s what I’ll be doing today. Tetrus Loading a lifetime’s worth of crap into a ten foot UHaul. Well, what’s left of a lifetime that I haven’t dumped, broken, gotten rid of, or burned. It’s all coming home with me. I said the ‘H’ word!!
I will no longer be living out of a suitcase y’alls. In the giant scope of things, its not that big of deal, but in my little world scope of things, its a giant deal.
I WILL HAVE MY STUFF!! MY BOOKS!! MY CLOTHES!!! MY MOVIES!!! MY KIDS’ STUFF!! MY CRAZY COSTUME STUFF!! MY HAIR STUFF!!! Then at 8PM I have my improv show. Life is good.
I did it.
I moved on. ME. With just me.
My shit, my way.
Suck it all y’alls who pooped on me my whole life.
Bite it all y’alls who boo’d me my whole life.
HOORAY all y’alls who always cheered me on even when I didn’t want you to!
HOORAY all y’alls who have always always believed in me. If it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t have believed in me. And that’s the most important person who needs to.
It took me a really long time, but I finally believe. Yes Virginia, there is life after 46 for people who didn’t save, or marry, or go to college or do any damn right thing you are supposed to do. Actually I did marry, I had kids, I have worked my butt off. And I need to quit saying I have nothing to show for it.
I have this amazing son
and
and this amazing daughter
And they aren’t ‘mine’, you don’t ‘own’ your kids, but they are all I have to show for my time here. They will go on to do amazing things without me. They don’t owe me a damn thing. But I don’t got no fortunes to leave behind, I don’t got no amazing thing for humanity except for I made two really cool humans.
So onward and upward warriors of life!!! Carry on! Carry on with your battle swords, your foam swords, your light sabers, your cardboard swords (good name for a band), or the swords you carry in your heart…life awaits!! DON’T GIVE UP.
Good luck…I’m packing my foam sword to swashbuckle through my day
and yes creating two cool humans is how we rock it. (double ditto)
Hi fives…and hi sword crossing!!!
I’m so happy for you, Judy!!! It’s a REALLY big deal to have all your stuff. It’s happening at a time that matches your internal sense of self. You are coming together, settling into being the person you’ve been waiting to be–a happy, balanced, beautiful person with two awesome kids. You deserve to have security and peace of mind. I think you’ll appreciate your “things” now, more than ever. I’m living vicariously through your current joy… And may I just say, you’re rockin your life right now, sister. It’s all yours.
xoxo
Lisa
Yes. Its like today I feel like I LIVE here. Its real. I’m here. My internal sense of self…I like that!! Keep rockin it sister.
You done good! I’m really happy for you Judy. I’m with Lisa, it is a big thing to have all yer stuff.
Carry on ! xoxox
Thank you my dear. Its funny…but I thought about you all all day today. I spilled my guts on this blog more than I do anywhere else. Thank you so much for reaching out and being awesome.
omg. this feels so good.
Such great news and good for you!! Much be a great feeling to have your kids and your belongings!! Joy, joy, joy!!
Yaayyy! Congratulations! Break a leg tonight! xoxoM
Thanks so much Margs!!!!!!
Congratulations! Hope the show went well.
Now you’ve got your stuff I hope you don’t have to spend weeks on end trying to work out where on earth it’s supposed to live – that’s always been my worst problem.
You’re still rockin’ on, my lovely. Xxx
awe…thanks FHC!!!! I’m bringing it in from the garage little by little! hahaha
Bit by bit sounds the way to go, then you’re not gonna be over-whelmed by a million boxes all wanting to be unpacked at the same time, with which you then get really fed up and just shove them in cupboards, unpacked, to get them out of the way. The result of this is then that when you can’t find what you need, you buy new and come to the boxes months or years later when you’re looking to move out and even then, still don’t sort them!
…and now I’m sitting here with a big goofy grin on my face.
awe!!! Thanks so much Guap!!! I am too!! : )