I’m losing my daughter. She’s shutting down and wasting away. Its a helpless, lost, empty, frustrating, scary, hopeless, fearful state. To have knowledge and power and strength means nothing. So bear with me. When I can type more… not on a cell phone.. I will.
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Oh, Speedo. I’m gutted for you. Still going to keep on praying for you and for her tho’. Xxx
Thank you Faith…knowing you are out there DOES make a difference. Very much so.
And it’s not just me. Looks like everyone reading you is rooting for you and your daughter.
Depression is one of those rather uncomfortable and unpleasant illnesses and no-one is immune. I hope – and pray – that the intervention goes well and that you’re able to resume working forwards again. Xxx
You’re not alone as you figure it out. xoM
Thank you Margarita!!!! And no, I/we are not!! LOVE!!
Oh darling, your short post says it all, and I’m so sorry you are feeling so helpless and frightened.
This illness is so insidious, it takes control and blinds us to others care and love. But I do not believe you have lost. Knowledge, power and strength may mean nothing now ~ but somewhere, your daughter knows how much you love her, and this will keep her fighting.
You are in my thoughts and heart ♡
Thanks E!!!! It is an all consuming thing this eating disorder, and she is suffering also from severe depression. She doesn’t care to care. It is so hard to see. Thank you for popping in and sending love!!! It means so much!!
I’m saying prayers for you and for your daughter. You’ll get through this. Hang in there. She’s her mother’s daughter, there is strength deep inside her and she’ll tap into it. I know it. I know you’re feeling scared and powerless. I’m so sorry you have to go through this.
Just know that I/we are out here in force, praying for God’s intervention.
Lisa xoxo
Thank you Lisa!!! I appreciate the prayers, I really do!! She is very strong, and I do see hope, but in the moment, no, I do not. Over time, yes. All of you mean a lot to me right now…thanks!!
keeping you and your daughter in my prayers. Be strong. I am terribly sorry
Thanks U!!!! The prayers mean a lot…I know they are floating around there in the ethernet of life and are sent to where they need to be. Thank you.
I wish you all the best. I hope you two make it fine through this
Thank you Mr. Mary!! Thanks for stopping in!! We are all very strong, and her dad too. We are in this together, that is really the only way. Thanks for the love!!
This post says so much.
I’m sorry you’re experiencing this setback. Please don’t give up on her. As I said in your other post, this is a process, and sometimes we experience (major) setbacks. If she has your strength, she’ll get through.
She is a very strong girl, and very stubborn, and being faced with a problem is, oddly enough, her best suit. This is just so slow and strange and powerful and sad. Thanks for the love, and the kind words of wisdom and strength that YOU have too!!
Oh dang it. I am so sorry for your pain. You are One Tough Broad and S’s Tough Broad is in there. You have friends out here and we are all pulling for you. My thoughts and prayers and you are in my heart. xoxox
Thanks MaggieMaggie!!! I know you all are out there and it helps so much to carry you all in my heart too!! Her dad and I are having an intervention of sorts with her tomorrow…so we’ll see what’s next. LOVE!!!!
I am so sorry to hear this. But I can also hear the love and compassion in your writing. Knowing that she has you and her father besides her, helping her along, will help her heal. Offer my prayers to you and your whole family.
Thank you DWF!!! This means a lot. I don’t know what is going to happen…its just scary.
You’re strong enough for both of you, and from what you’ve described, she’s pretty strong too.
I know between the two of you, you’ll figure out what works for her to get her to move on, whether it’s an environment, a song, a phrase, or just her mother’s love.
The whole ‘sphere is pulling for her, Speedo. And for you too.
Thank Guapo. It means a lot. We really just need to be straight with her and hope she is honest back and see where we go from there.
I hope you not giving up hope in her is as inspiring to her as it is to me.
No idea what it might be, but if there’s anything I can do for you, let me know.
It would be an honor.
Thanks Guapo…I will let you know. Not giving up hope at all – a little confused about how much to share in the blogosphere…
Thinking of you for the intervention – hoping you get her back to a good therapist.
Sad to read it since a minute ago everything seemed so positive…sounds like a platitude but ‘this too shall pass’..it has to x
All of the positive stuff is still very positive. Everything that is going on right now is just that…it is going on right now…side by side. Such is life. No platitudes here.
I can’t imagine how you must be feeling, Speedo, but we’re not going anywhere, and we’re here for you. I wish you and your daughter much strength and courage–big hugs to you both.
Thanks. Thanks for your words and love. Its a crazy thing this mental state of eating disorder land.
All my positive thoughts are with you. I’m so sorry that this is happening to you and your daughter. Take care and we’ll be here when you get back. Keep on keeping on …