Just Butting In

I am behind on reading blogs…doing my best with that via my phone…cuz I HAVE NEWS…I GOT A JOB.  A JOB WITH A PAYCHECK.  AND I’M STILL DOING HAIR.  AND TINY JOB AT ARCHITECTS AND CLEANING HOUSES.

AND….DRUMROLL…..

I FOUND A PLACE TO LIVE.

I will be moving Dec. 1st.  It is a miracle.  I can pay what I can, when I can, to start…it is in a room in a house in Denver, in that neighborhood I wanted to live in.

I will go into more detail about how fucking magical this fucking is at another time. It is super late and I have to get up early BECAUSE I HAVE TO WORK.

and p.s.

In seven weeks…I created two jobs for myself (doing hair on my own/cleaning houses) grabbed all I could from one four hour a week job doing accounting AND I got a full time job.  I have money in the bank, and I am moving in to a room in a beautiful house in a week.

SO

SUCK

ON

THAT

NON

BELIEVERS.

There are none of those HERE….but I just wanted to kudos myself to all the assholes who instead of helping and supporting, even in just words, have been awful to me: namely my mom/dad/two sisters.  I do not know why.  They found out about my daughter’s problem via my ex I guess…I HAD OTHER SHIT GOING DOWN BY THE WAY LIKE FINDING SHELTER…I honestly don’t know what made them decide to completely ignore me and quit speaking to me.  Besides being mean and spiteful and COOCOOPANTS.  But I’ve never felt stronger or more myself than I do right now.  Besides, they don’t come here.  I don’t think they can read anyway.  And if they could:SUCK TOWN SUCK IT SUCK IT SUCK IT.

And kudos to all the angels who worked overtime to bring me such wonderful, amazing, helpful, inspirational, uplifting, hard working, no nonsense people in my life right now who have either financially supported me, supported me in this blog land of wordpress amazingness, those who have given me work, a bed, food, places to sleep and keep my stuff and most of all; who trusted me for being me and who lent me so many hands in doing so and most of all, just let me IN.  It has made a world of difference and I hope to pay it forward each and every day however I can.  Life really does happen when you just let go and step into it authentically and by the way, having a ton o’ balls for being up for whatever comes next while you do this, doesn’t hurt either.

I had no idea where I was sleeping when I left Douchey.  I had texted some friends…but I packed my shit anyway and got outta Dodge. I grabbed a blanket and a pillow just in case MY CAR was it.

NEVER.

GIVE.

UP.

I love you guys!!!!

This is what I am doing with my first paycheck…

I didn’t just walk away from what no longer worked for me…I walked towards a more powerful and amazing self.  Full force, speed walked.  I’m talking, jogbra worthy walkin’ here folks. I highly recommend it.

I know I am still on an uphill walk here.  I am starting from nothing and have bills and owe money.  I have actually been using the movie Albert Nobbs as inspiration.  Seriously.  I did it today.  I wanted to go out for a beer, but I said ‘Albert Nobbs. Be Albert.  Go home and count your money.’ Check this movie out as it is incredible in so many ways.  What is helping me right now is how Albert comes home from his hard ass shitty job every single night and ads up his meager pay and has a big dream…and keeps it in sight even with what little it seems like he has.

You go girl. (This is what I will ACTUALLY do with my money. After I buy at least two cans of silly spray.)

I love Albert.